Embracing Complexity: Rediscovering Faithfulness In The Healing Journey

Becoming Me

Episode 128
In this final episode of the season, I share how my understanding of faithfulness has evolved as I healed. Initially, my understanding of faithfulness was deeply rooted in a binary, performance-based perspective, influenced by my cultural and religious upbringing. I viewed it as a straightforward measure of adherence to a set of religious practices and moral standards, essentially a checklist that delineated a clear boundary between being faithful and unfaithful.
This perspective was challenged and eventually transformed through a journey of interior healing and unlearning, prompted by encounters with others who shared their struggles and a pivotal personal retreat that revealed the inadequacy of my foundational beliefs about faithfulness. I came to realise that faithfulness is not about meeting a predefined set of criteria perfectly but about authentic engagement with God's love and grace amidst our imperfections.
This new understanding of faithfulness as dynamic, multi-layered, and diverse in expression, deeply influenced by personal context and inner disposition, has significantly altered how I perceive myself and others, fostering a more compassionate and nuanced view of our collective striving towards faithfulness.
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CHAPTER MARKERS
(00:00:17) - Introduction
(00:02:01) - The Importance of Conviction and Integration
(00:07:20) - The Role of Trauma in Personal Growth
(00:10:21) - Virtue and Emotion Regulation
(00:11:51) - The Struggle of Living Out Convictions
(00:13:58) - God's Love in Personal Transformation
(00:25:58) - The Challenge of Living Out Conovictions in Relationships
(00:26:59) - The Journey of Healing and Integration
(00:29:52) - The Role of Discernment in the Interior Journey
(00:43:20) - Conclusion
TRANSCRIPT
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REFLECTION PROMPT
Have you experienced being full of passion and conviction about the kind of life you want to live while realising that you don't have the power to make that conviction a reality in your life? Can you identify how a lack of integration may be the reason for that?

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1. Embracing Complexity: Rediscovering Faithfulness In The Healing Journey (00:00:00)

2. Introduction (00:00:25)

3. My "Before" Perspective (00:04:39)

4. Faithfulness is (Not) Binary (00:05:28)

5. Faithfulness is (Not) Independent of Context (00:08:22)

6. The Faithfulness 'Checklist' (00:12:06)

7. My "After" Perspective (00:17:45)

8. The Broken Church, The Broken Me (00:18:16)

9. Rebuilding from the Ground Up (00:21:41)

10. God does not Evaluate Me (00:22:53)

11. Relearning who God is (00:25:46)

12. My Understanding of Faithfulness is Distorted (00:26:50)

13. Faithfulness is Dynamic (00:31:15)

14. Our Honesty with Ourselves and with God (00:36:09)

15. The Impact of a Perspective Change (00:41:08)

16. Announcement (00:48:08)

17. Conclusion (00:48:56)